Grief is a sneaky fucker… It comes up out of no where and knocks you off your feet.

Today that happened and it made me reflect on a few things, namely what has changed in my life since my sister passed away in 2005. Or more accurately, how I’ve changed.

#1. I don’t have time for anyone who is not good enough for me or my family. Surrounding yourself with good, honest, fun people is what makes life a good ride, why bother with those that bring you down in any way? I now have a very low tolerance for selfish people who always complain about their situation in life, as if they are the center of the universe. As if you are important enough for me to care what you are prattling on about. On the flip side, I love hearing about people’s passions, adventures and stories of a full life.

#2. I plan for the future, but live for today. Everything I do has a purpose for later in my life, be it tomorrow, next month or 5 years from now. And I try to live everyday, happy at the end of the day that I’d have no regrets if I didn’t wake up tomorrow. That means being a good person, giving good karma, and not doing anything to hurt anyone else.

#3. Don’t sweat the small stuff. This is something I absolutely live by, and it makes so much god damn sense. I just don’t get how people can waste so much energy and emotion getting angry or upset at the stupidest little things.

#4. Never settle. If I’m unhappy in any situation, I will work to change it.

#5. Don’t bow to peer pressure. I’ll do whatever the fuck I want thank you very much, I don’t need you to tell me how to have fun.

This all probably sounds a bit negative, but really it’s all about ridding the negative from life, so I can live the long, happy and fulfilled life that my sister wasn’t able to.

My sister and I in 2000

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